Seperti mantra
Ketika aku jatuh cinta
Walau hanya sebentar
Mataku terbuka untuk sesuatu yang akan menyakitiku
seperti cinta yang tak akan pernah aku miliki
Atau punggung yang hanya sanggup aku nikmati saja
Seperti, di jidatku , tertulis: dilarang jatuh cinta! Atau kamu akan dibuang
Jadi, yang ak pelajari sekarang : mencintailah, berikan hatimu dan mereka akan membuangnya
Kemarin aku liat sesuatu yang lucu .Jahat emang, tapi terhibur aja liat cowok yang nggak bisa move on.
Sebut saja namanya Parjo.
Dia temen masa kecil & baru ketemu lagi setelah kita udah gede. Ganteng, tapi sayang banget dah galon ._.
Baru liat di akun socmednya dia yang galau2 gitu,iseng aku cari blognya + kepo postingannya. ENG ING ENGGGG. Semua post ttg ceweknya : dari awal ketemu - patah hatinya ditikung. Dia cerita sambil brbusa2 ( kalo dibayangin aja sih )
Keliatan bgt masih sayang tapi ditikung. Cinta emang jahat :l
Kadang aku bingung ya kenapa manusia itu suka sama yang menyia2kan dan mengabaikan apa yang didepan mata ? #gausahcurhatdehcak
kasian ya liat penantian yang udah pasti sia2...
But its something we couldnt interfere into...
Itu masalah hati mennn :"")
Thats why we called them... the idiot. Its trueee
Saat jatuh cinta
Otak yang bekerja 24/7 akan berhenti melakukan tugasnya dan terisi oleh fantasi yang diciptakan oleh rasa itu sendiri
Saat jatuh cinta
Menatap lekat-lekat /melihatnya diam-diam, tersenyum/tersipu, mengejek /memuji, akur/bertengkar ,mendekati/menjauhinya
Saat jatuh cinta
Matanya adalah rumah.
Saat jatuh cinta
Dia berubah menjadi methamphetamin yang membuatmu berilusi terlalu lama dan membuatmu ingin ,sebisa mungkin, ada didekatnya.
Saat jatuh cinta
Ada kekosongan seperti gelas tak beralas ketika kamu terus merindu dan kamu hanya mampu menikmati bayangannya yang semakin lama mengabur.
Saat jatuh cinta
Dan kamu tau , dia bukan takdirmu.
Saat mencoba tidak jatuh cinta
Kamu membuang segalanya tentang dia atau bahkan mencoba untuk menjauhinya . Tapi dadamu terasa nyeri karena itu menyakitimu. Seperti melawan arus sungai, jika kamu tidak kuat, kamu akan hancur
Bahkan seperti menguras air di laut
Kita tak akan begitu saja mau berhenti walau rasanya seperti mati kelelahan, kan?
Itulah.
Kenapa kamu harus memikir ulang saat kamu jatuh cinta.
When i dont see you, feel like half empty inside me. And that is pretty bad.
When i see you, whole world stop for a while, and i miss you over and over. Then the wound that hasn't been heal ,hurt again.
Thats worst.
Maybe the wind pitied me and
is crushingly embracing me
Maybe the wind wants to be friends
and follows me because it’s always alone
No matter how much I smile,
saying that I’m alright
So tell me a story
So tell me your sadness
You shake up my heart,
not leaving it alone
So tell me a story
I know that you’re sorry
Knocking on my heart that
even I hid from myself
So tell me a story
The wind passes by my eyes Telling me to
cry if I want, as if it’s the wind’s fault
No matter how much
I say I’m alright
So tell me a story
So tell me your sadness
You shake up my heart,
not leaving it alone
So tell me a story
I know that you’re sorry
Knocking on my heart that
even I hid from myself
So tell me a story
So tell me a story
So tell me your sadness
You tear up my heart,
making me cry
So tell me a story
I know that you’re sorry
You ask me about my sadness
that is hidden behind the
moonlight That long storyThough my eyes look
at you, I can’t see you
Though my lips call you,
you can’t hear me
Though my heart wants
you, you can’t feel it
Though my everything looks
for you, you’re not there
I’ve never learned about love but
why are these feelings coming
to me? It hurts so much that I
can’t handle it so I can’t go to you
Though my heart wants
you, you can’t feel it
Though my everything looks
for you, you’re not there
I’ve never learned about love but
why are these feelings coming
to me? It hurts so much that I can’t
handle it so I can’t go to you
I want you and hope for you
but I can’t have you
I try to change love into
goodbye but my heart…
I’ve never learned about love but
why are these feelings coming
to me? It hurts so much that I can’t
handle it so I can’t go to you
I can’t take this anymore, why has
this kind of pain come to me?
I think I’ll be like this for a while,
my wings are cut up because of you
I think I’ll be like this for a while
I think I’ll be like this for a while
I think I’ll be like this for a whileI look at you, I look at you but you’re getting farther away
I beg, I cling but you’re getting farther away
Even my scratched up scars know
So without saying a single word
I just look at you, who is leaving
Crying again, crying again, my love who I loved like my own life
Crying again, crying again, I try to steady my heart and hold it in but love is crying again
You’re leaving, you’re leaving
Without a word, you’re leaving me
I should have cared for you a little more
I should have loved you a little more
A regretful love is leaving me
Crying again, crying again, my love who I loved like my own life
Crying again, crying again, I try to steady my heart and hold it in but love is crying again
I call, call, call out to you
I hold and hold onto you but you turn away
It hurts so much that I can’t breathe
Crying again, crying again
Letting you go, letting you go, I’m letting go of you, who is strengthlessly leaving
Letting you go, letting you go, I’m strenghlessly letting go of this foolish loveribuan bintang yang sangat besar masanya, menyedot semua benda angkasa tanpa terlihat
Aku harap bintangku bisa bertahan
Can you see me-the one who broken but still there to stand by you?
Then i see you- the one who torn my heart into pieces just for passing me by...
Dan kata kata seperti merangkai dirinya sendiri, membentuk sebuah puisi
Tanpa judul.
Dan seperti yang lalu-lalu, kamu masih menjadi makna didalamnya
yang belum aku tahu cara mengartikannya
Cause you are the most favorite reason to keep this love on my way..
i've been knowing you are not going to do the same, though.